So, long before this baby arrived, I read Bringing Up Bebe. A charming book written by an American woman who is raising her babies in France. Being a bit of a Europhile (ha, a bit), I really glommed onto this … Continue reading
I always thought I was a grateful person, but in the last two weeks I understood it on a whole new level. Tonight I completed my first two weeks as an oncology nurse. It’s been exhausting, gratifying, concerning, and tough, but it’s been good. It’s not all oncology, only about half the patients have cancer. The other half are a mixed bag of medical problems, often heart disease, COPD, diabetes, etc.
But the cancer patients, wow, the cancer patients. They are young, some close to my age. They were healthy. Runners, bikers, vegetarians, new moms. Last week, a month ago, 6 months ago, 5 years ago they found out they have cancer. Some don’t even know yet. They have cancer. I know, but it’s not my role to tell them. What do you do with that? What do I do with that… at the hospital, at home?
They come to me, some with their first or second round of chemo, some on their last with their livers’ and kidneys’ and hearts’ wrecked from the fight. I see them for a few hours, maybe a couple of days, of what will be the battle of their lifetime, their new identity, their new story, their last story, their survival story. There is no way to know right now which it will be.
Selfishly I wonder, where do I fit in this story. Will my passing through their journey be positive, helpful, encouraging, comforting, truthful? I guess this is my challenge.